Just wanted to give a heads up that tomorrow (Tuesday) night there will be two new episodes of Wipeout back to back starting at 8 on ABC. I can’t wait! They’ve got some new events that look like a blast to watch. To see my favorite contestant so far check here. As always, “Good night and big balls.”
We headed over to the Schlegel’s on Saturday to wash the fast car. All of a sudden I looked up and Tru had taken his shirt off just like Scott. Without asking or anything. If it’s good enough for Dad, it’s good enough for him apparently. The funny thing is Tru looks just like Scott so it’s silly to me that he would be the one to do it. Like it’s not enough to look like him, he’s got to be like him also. The other two left their shirts on. They didn’t even seem to notice the shirt off theme that was running around.
Stephenie Meyer posted her Breaking Dawn Q&A. It’s really fun to read. She explains why she chose the name Renesmee and why vampires can/cannot get pregnant, etc. I loved reading it. It gave me some great insight into her thinking. Did you take anything away from it?
So when I sat down on Tuesday and wrote about Oli going to school I was a little lonely but totally in control of myself. That started to change when I picked him up from school and he was totally distraught. He looked like he had been tortured for 2 1/2 hours rather than playing with new friends. I asked him if he had fun and he said, “No.” We talked about going back to school on Tuesday and he said he didn’t want to go. He spent the rest of the day in between pouting and throwing fits. It totally threw me for a loop. Majorly catching me off guard. I felt like I had made a terrible mistake sending him to school. My poor baby!
Well, that set me up for panic attacks. I made it all the way until 7pm before the first one hit. Luckily (or unluckily), I have a lot of practice dealing with panic attacks. So I sat on my bed and let the waves of panic wash over me. I can deal with the physical symptoms of a panic attack pretty well. For me, that’s the easy part. The hard part is when Satan jumps in and tries to get me to hurt myself. What a jerk. Totally kicking me when I’m down. Telling me, “This will never end. You’re never going to get better. You’re going to feel like this for the rest of your life so you might as well end it now. Scott’s better off without you anyway. You just bring sorrow and pain to him. Someone else would treat him much better than you possibly can. They could take care of your kids better too. They wouldn’t have to deal with all of your episodes. etc, etc.” He just goes on and on until I feel like I’m losing my mind because there’s a really stupid, gullible part of me that believes him. Then on the other hand Scott has told me before that he would lose it if anything happened to me. And I think of my kids and what it would feel like to grow up with a mother who killed herself. How it would give them an opening I would never want them to consider. The icing on the panic cake is that I have flashbacks to my hospitalization when I have an attack. It makes me want to vomit how real it feels. In the end, I win. But not without suffering a great deal.
So I’m sitting in my bed having my third panic attack and I lose it and call my mom to come sit with me. I don’t know if it was just having her in the house, or what, but I didn’t have another panic attack after she got here. Thank goodness. I felt really fragile all day Wednesday but in control. I even made it out to the bakery to get myself a pick me up. There’s nothing like chocolaty baked goods to help ease the pain.
Now we made it to Thursday and Oli still didn’t want to go to school. He went though. I talked to his teacher when I picked him up and she said he had a great day and was shocked when I told her he was reluctant to go to school. That’s a huge relief. It makes me think that given a few more weeks Oli will be a pro at going to school. Then I wont have to feel guilty about sending him and enjoying my time to myself. And truth be told this is why we wanted to send him to school at 3 in the first place. We had a feeling he’d have a hard time with it. Which is silly because it totally caught me off guard when he did. I know, I’m ridiculous. But what would you do without me writing about my ludicrous experiences? Seriously, what would you do?
This dance is from my second favorite choreographer Sonja Tayeh. She was brand new to the series this last season. This is a battle of the sexes. Very sexy. Love Courney’s look. They did a great job with the costume and hair. Do you like this one?
If you know what that stands for this post is for you. In my lonely state this morning I turned on The View to keep me company and lo and behold there was the whole New Kids on the Block crew. They’re together again!!! Oh happy day. Now unfortunately for me I’m not a NKOTB fan. But I assumed some of you were, so I wanted to share the happy news with you. Of course, I’m totally out of the loop on all things musical so you may have known this for a long time now. Apparently there’s a new album, The Block (you can buy it on iTunes). If you want, you can go to their site and see the video for their new song Single. You can also check out their tour dates. That’s right ladies, they’re going on tour!!
Personally, I don’t think any of them have aged well and I’m not sure anything fabulous is going to come of this, but I’ve been wrong before. So if you’re a NKOTB fan go support your boys. They need you. Then let me know what you think about their new album or the reunion or the tour. Just let me know what you think. I’m dying to hear a fans perspective.
And I know I’m posting right on top of the kids again. I just can’t help myself, I get so excited, so make sure you look below at Oli’s first day of preschool.
Well, it actually happened. Oli is in school and I’m sitting in a deathly silent house all by myself. I’m ashamed to say, I’m a little lonely. I’m sure I’ll get over that though. This is supposed to be my workout time but I’m obviously squandering it on less strenuous activities. Oli was excited about school until this morning. He kept saying he didn’t want to go because “We’re going to do bad things at school.” What does that mean? I don’t know. He wouldn’t explain. Then he didn’t want to go because we didn’t buy him new school shoes like the other boys. Whoops. Kind of dropped the ball on that one. It must be confusing for him to see the kids in their uniforms and new shoes and not think he needs the same.
Scott stayed home to take him to school with me and it was just so weird. He’s my baby. He’s not even four yet. The kids been running around the house the last week making baby noises and totally reverting about a year. The nice thing is, I totally trust the teachers and the school that he’s going to. We started there with Max and except for a few minor run ins with the office staff we’ve had a great experience with them. The main thing is, the kids have had a great experience with them. Not one complaint from either of the older two. Not one. They loved their teachers and going to school.
So in case you’re wondering, he’s going to Community Preschool. I would highly recommend it.
