Just wanted to give a heads up that tomorrow (Tuesday) night there will be two new episodes of Wipeout back to back starting at 8 on ABC. I can’t wait! They’ve got some new events that look like a blast to watch. To see my favorite contestant so far check here. As always, “Good night and big balls.”
We headed over to the Schlegel’s on Saturday to wash the fast car. All of a sudden I looked up and Tru had taken his shirt off just like Scott. Without asking or anything. If it’s good enough for Dad, it’s good enough for him apparently. The funny thing is Tru looks just like Scott so it’s silly to me that he would be the one to do it. Like it’s not enough to look like him, he’s got to be like him also. The other two left their shirts on. They didn’t even seem to notice the shirt off theme that was running around.
Stephenie Meyer posted her Breaking Dawn Q&A. It’s really fun to read. She explains why she chose the name Renesmee and why vampires can/cannot get pregnant, etc. I loved reading it. It gave me some great insight into her thinking. Did you take anything away from it?
So when I sat down on Tuesday and wrote about Oli going to school I was a little lonely but totally in control of myself. That started to change when I picked him up from school and he was totally distraught. He looked like he had been tortured for 2 1/2 hours rather than playing with new friends. I asked him if he had fun and he said, “No.” We talked about going back to school on Tuesday and he said he didn’t want to go. He spent the rest of the day in between pouting and throwing fits. It totally threw me for a loop. Majorly catching me off guard. I felt like I had made a terrible mistake sending him to school. My poor baby!
Well, that set me up for panic attacks. I made it all the way until 7pm before the first one hit. Luckily (or unluckily), I have a lot of practice dealing with panic attacks. So I sat on my bed and let the waves of panic wash over me. I can deal with the physical symptoms of a panic attack pretty well. For me, that’s the easy part. The hard part is when Satan jumps in and tries to get me to hurt myself. What a jerk. Totally kicking me when I’m down. Telling me, “This will never end. You’re never going to get better. You’re going to feel like this for the rest of your life so you might as well end it now. Scott’s better off without you anyway. You just bring sorrow and pain to him. Someone else would treat him much better than you possibly can. They could take care of your kids better too. They wouldn’t have to deal with all of your episodes. etc, etc.” He just goes on and on until I feel like I’m losing my mind because there’s a really stupid, gullible part of me that believes him. Then on the other hand Scott has told me before that he would lose it if anything happened to me. And I think of my kids and what it would feel like to grow up with a mother who killed herself. How it would give them an opening I would never want them to consider. The icing on the panic cake is that I have flashbacks to my hospitalization when I have an attack. It makes me want to vomit how real it feels. In the end, I win. But not without suffering a great deal.
So I’m sitting in my bed having my third panic attack and I lose it and call my mom to come sit with me. I don’t know if it was just having her in the house, or what, but I didn’t have another panic attack after she got here. Thank goodness. I felt really fragile all day Wednesday but in control. I even made it out to the bakery to get myself a pick me up. There’s nothing like chocolaty baked goods to help ease the pain.
Now we made it to Thursday and Oli still didn’t want to go to school. He went though. I talked to his teacher when I picked him up and she said he had a great day and was shocked when I told her he was reluctant to go to school. That’s a huge relief. It makes me think that given a few more weeks Oli will be a pro at going to school. Then I wont have to feel guilty about sending him and enjoying my time to myself. And truth be told this is why we wanted to send him to school at 3 in the first place. We had a feeling he’d have a hard time with it. Which is silly because it totally caught me off guard when he did. I know, I’m ridiculous. But what would you do without me writing about my ludicrous experiences? Seriously, what would you do?
This dance is from my second favorite choreographer Sonja Tayeh. She was brand new to the series this last season. This is a battle of the sexes. Very sexy. Love Courney’s look. They did a great job with the costume and hair. Do you like this one?
If you know what that stands for this post is for you. In my lonely state this morning I turned on The View to keep me company and lo and behold there was the whole New Kids on the Block crew. They’re together again!!! Oh happy day. Now unfortunately for me I’m not a NKOTB fan. But I assumed some of you were, so I wanted to share the happy news with you. Of course, I’m totally out of the loop on all things musical so you may have known this for a long time now. Apparently there’s a new album, The Block (you can buy it on iTunes). If you want, you can go to their site and see the video for their new song Single. You can also check out their tour dates. That’s right ladies, they’re going on tour!!
Personally, I don’t think any of them have aged well and I’m not sure anything fabulous is going to come of this, but I’ve been wrong before. So if you’re a NKOTB fan go support your boys. They need you. Then let me know what you think about their new album or the reunion or the tour. Just let me know what you think. I’m dying to hear a fans perspective.
And I know I’m posting right on top of the kids again. I just can’t help myself, I get so excited, so make sure you look below at Oli’s first day of preschool.
Well, it actually happened. Oli is in school and I’m sitting in a deathly silent house all by myself. I’m ashamed to say, I’m a little lonely. I’m sure I’ll get over that though. This is supposed to be my workout time but I’m obviously squandering it on less strenuous activities. Oli was excited about school until this morning. He kept saying he didn’t want to go because “We’re going to do bad things at school.” What does that mean? I don’t know. He wouldn’t explain. Then he didn’t want to go because we didn’t buy him new school shoes like the other boys. Whoops. Kind of dropped the ball on that one. It must be confusing for him to see the kids in their uniforms and new shoes and not think he needs the same.
Scott stayed home to take him to school with me and it was just so weird. He’s my baby. He’s not even four yet. The kids been running around the house the last week making baby noises and totally reverting about a year. The nice thing is, I totally trust the teachers and the school that he’s going to. We started there with Max and except for a few minor run ins with the office staff we’ve had a great experience with them. The main thing is, the kids have had a great experience with them. Not one complaint from either of the older two. Not one. They loved their teachers and going to school.
So in case you’re wondering, he’s going to Community Preschool. I would highly recommend it.
OK, if you know me really well you know that I L-O-V-E Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Buffy is the ultimate fighting machine. She’s surrounded by a group of friends affectionately known as the Scooby Gang. I watched the entire series last year and loved it from start to finish. I just threw it on Netflix and watched it while I ran on the treadmill. There were some days when I was so caught up in it I’d watch several episodes at a time. Before you gasp and think how horrible that is, you think about when you get caught up in a great book and all of a sudden a couple of hours go by. I know you’re guilty of it too. And Buffy is as good as any book. I’m thinking that when all the current shows go in to reruns again I’ll start Buffy over.
I’ll let you know if I decide to and we can have Buffy nights together. I know you’re skeptical but give it a chance. The writing for the show is amazing and has really quick wit and banter. And even though there are a lot of demons and living dead it’s really not scary.
So what’s prompted this little post is that Scott found an article for me that a Buffy animated series may be in the works some day. It just reminded me how much I love Buffy and how I wish I had been in on all the hype back when it originally aired. Did any of you watch Buffy back in the day? Did you watch it together at someone’s house? Did you want to be a slayer? Did you have a crush on Spike? Oh, I’m so jealous.
OK. I’m giving you guys a full days notice on this one. I just saw it advertised last night. The idea is Tom Arnold narrates over scenes of couples getting married hard core redneck style. There have been demolition derby weddings, greased pigs, ATV mattress tosses, etc. My Big Redneck Wedding is a fabulous show. Now they’ve taken it to the next level. Here’s what CMT has to say:
One lucky redneck couple is in for the surprise of their life when Tom Arnold takes their redneck wedding plans and turns them into the Biggest Redneck Wedding Ever. As Elaine and Bruce plan their strictly-budgeted wedding near a Florida mud bog, Tom sneaks around town after them using his charm to rally the townsfolk to help make everything bigger, better and redder than ever. And when he learns they don’t have a minister, he even gets ordained online so he can perform the ceremony himself. From a gigantic beer can archway at the altar to a reception filled with redneck games, cooked critters and a mud themed tower of wedding cake, it truly is the craziest, the muddiest and the Biggest Redneck Wedding Ever.
I’m hooked. I’ve got Tivo all set up (by the way I had trouble finding this. It’s listed under CMT’s Biggest Redneck Wedding Ever.) It’s on Saturday at 8pm on CMT. Now if you don’t catch it Saturday, don’t worry. CMT is replaying it every day at different times for the next week. It would seem they’re a little desperate for shows, what do you think?
I have really high hopes for this show. Really high hopes. Tom Arnold is a really great host. Very funny. I’m a little worried though because the couple doesn’t look that redneck. They’re totally posing in white, button up shirts. That’s not redneck. Where’s the camo? And the mullet? And the guns? These people look like posers to me. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see. Check back into the comments in a few days and I’ll tell you what I thought of the show and you can tell me what you thought of it.
I wont give the full story but it looks like Midnight Sun (the book from Edward’s perspective) has been indefinitely put on hold because copies of it were leaked prematurely. Stephenie Meyer has released a partial manuscript for Midnight Sun on her sight. I haven’t seen it yet. My computer wont open the file. I need Scott’s help on this one so it may be a few days. If you read it let me know what you think. I’m really sad that this is happening. I was really looking forward to the book. Whine, whine, whine. If I don’t get the file to open though with Scott’s help someone is going to have to let me camp out at their house and read it. It’s a long one too. So who wants a house guest?
I don’t want this post to take away from my earlier post about the boys going to school, it’s just of a time sensitive nature. I am a huge fan of Mythbusters. I have seen every episode, even the early ones where they had a mechanic girl instead of Grant (not meaning the girls was mechanic, meaning she was a mechanic). I love this show. It’s such a good mix of total geekdom and comedy. The idea is that they take myths and put them to the test to either prove or disprove them. Mythbusters is usually on the Discovery Channel, Wednesday nights at 9pm; though if you’re just starting out watching, they rerun their shows all the time, even during the day.
I’m so intent on writing this post because at 10:00 tonight they are re-airing their NASA Moon Landing episode and it is fabulous! So they’re taking the myth that we’ve never actually been to the moon and testing it. I wont tell you the ending though you can probably guess for yourself how it turns out. I’m not saying this was the best show they’ve ever done, I just thoroughly enjoyed watching it and thought it would be a good one for you guys to start out with. Unfortunately nothing explodes in this episode but it’s still fun.
Now check out my pictures of the kids on their first day of school then check out Mythbusters tonight.
This morning Max started 2nd grade and Tru is a big Kindergartener. Tru wanted to make sure he showed off his Transfor
mers backpack. Max is still sporting his tagged backpack from K. We’ll see if it holds up through the year. Tru has half days for the next couple of weeks and then he’ll be on a full day schedule with Max so they can ride the bus home together. Tru seems pretty excited to ride the bus by himself too but the boys were totally excited about sitting together and walking home together. Thank goodness they get along. They’ve really grown close over the last couple of weeks. It’s been really sweet to watch as they do nice things together or play with each other. What good kids we have.
So it’s just Oli and I now at home. I told him he’d have to wait a while to watch a movie so he laid down in the hall and moaned, “Mommy. Mommy.” Over and over again. This is definitely going to be an adjustment for the two of us. Thank goodness preschool starts next week.
Scott was nice enough to go to Safeway the other day and do all of the shopping. I was unloading the groceries when I found this tasty little number. I was shocked that Safeway would have something so pretty. Turns out there’s a bakery in the same shopping center (Bernardo and El Camino) that he stopped by and picked this up. It’s called Sugar Butter Flour and the treat was beyond delicious. It was a flourless cake with some kind of mousse on top with raspberry sauce mixed in. Just thinking of it makes me drool. I wanted all of you to know about this place. I will definitely be making visits there now that I know it exists. Yum.
First, Scott did another Tri two weeks ago and he bettered his time by a minute. It was the same course as the last one he did so he knew what to expect this time. He was even so fast that the shutter on my iPhone missed him as he ran past. How ridiculous is that. Do you have a problem with that? I can never time my iPhone shutter right on action shots. Anyway, good job babe.
Then I had to go to Kaiser to drop of a Medical form for Oliver’s preschool and ran into a van with all these Indian wolf stickers on it. Of course it immediately reminded me of Jacob and his pack of werewolves (or shape shifters if you want to get picky on me). It just totally tickled me. I really doubt that I’ll run into any stickers that remind me of Edward. What would they be? A picture of a diamond? I seriously don’t know. Have any ideas?
Then, an update on swimming.
I was terrified to get back into the pool after that first encounter. Every time I thought about going back in any kind of water I was gripped with fear. So I started out slow. I took the kids down to our pool with the idea that I would just get in and not do any swimming. Well once I got in I was totally fine so I did laps for about 15 minutes with occasional stops to play with the boys. It was a really fabulous experience because Tru would wait for me to turn back to the shallow end and then he would swim towards me and shoot me. This was just so hilarious to him that it really brightened my experience.
So it was time for a trip back to the big pool. I didn’t touch the 13 feet. I swam in their smaller pool that’s meant for water aerobics so it’s shallow all the way through. But I swam for about 30 minutes without getting scared once. Now I just have to get back into the big pool and the circle will be complete. All I have to say is thank goodness I tried swimming before doing the Tri. Now I can try to prepare myself for the breathing and the open water factors. Although, I do think the open water is going to freak me out. At least I know if I can swim I can make it through it if I stay calm. I’ll keep you posted.
Scott found this great triathlon for me to run at the end of Sept. It’s a mini triathlon so it’s a 200 yard swim, 5 mile bike and 1 mile run. Easy right? Well everything but the swimming is easy, right? That equals 4 laps in the pool. Now that doesn’t sound so scary does it? That’s what I kept trying to tell myself. Anyone can do 4 laps can’t they? Well I was pretty scared to get in the pool today. That’s an understatement. I was really scared to get in the pool. It’s been 12 years since my short lived stint on the Wilcox High School swim team. Twelve years! I was totally psyching myself out. Telling myself that my body would give up halfway through one lap and everyone would be swimming past me and get mad at me for being in their way. I told myself lots of other bad stuff too. I’m not very nice to myself.
So the bad news is. It was worse than I thought it was going to be. I hadn’t factored in the hyperventilating and the fear of deep water. When I jumped in the pool and saw that it was 13 feet deep I literally freaked out. Oh man, did I freak out. So I throw my head in the water and push off and start swimming as fast as I can and the first breath I get water in my mouth but keep going and I keep gulping down water. That’s not right. That’s not what’s supposed to happen. So I do side stroke the rest of the way across the pool and try it again. It happens again. Over and over. So I just hung out at the side of the pool for a while trying to figure out what on earth I’m doing wrong.
The good news. I finally figured out what I was doing wrong. I was swimming too fast. That sounds weird, I know. I wasn’t giving my out of shape lungs the appropriate amount of time to take a breath in. I was stroking my arms too fast. So, I slowed way down and just took it easy across the pool and I actually made it to the other side. The other thing I had to do was look forward not down because the deep pool really did freak me out. So the realization now is that I can probably do the 200 yard swim, I’m just going to have to do it really slow. My goal changed from finishing the race in any place but last to finishing the race, period. And you know what? I think I can live with that. If I have to I’ll side stroke my way through the course. Why not?
The even better news. I got to go to lunch with Scott. We walked into Le Boulanger (I get the California Fresh sans onions) and he said, “We’ll get you a Coke.” Music to my ears. Does my man take care of me or what? I even talked him into buying me a bundt cake on the way out. That’s what I’m holding in my picture. My Coke and bundt cake. Clisty, I’m sure it’s not as good as the ones near you but as Gary says, “It’s not a gold medal but it will do.” So all I’m saying is if my swim sessions end with lunch with my husband, plus a bundt cake, sign me up.
Now, I’m writing this post because I want to see my progress over the next couple of weeks. I’m hoping there will be some. This is such a big journey that I wanted to share it. It’s so weird how the running and the biking have come so easily to me but the swimming is kicking my butt. I think I have the method down now so this should get easier.
Is anyone interested in doing the tri with me? I don’t expect you to go as slow as me. I want to make that clear. Go as fast as your body lets you. It would just be fun to see each other at the beginning and end. Or, if you have a bike that someone could borrow, let me know. I know that’s what holds some people back. I think this is going to be hard but totally worth it when I cross the finish line. That’s what I’m holding on to.
So on a side note the picture was Truman’s picture taking debut. My kids are the ones that usually take the pictures of me and for 5 and 7 year olds I think they do a great job.
Also I was pretty defeated when I came home today until I found my friend Clisty’s blog post for the day. She found a site called Cake Wrecks where they feature professional cakes gone wrong. Hilarious. I think I spent an hour cracking up looking over all the cakes. My favorite is the fireman which you have to go pretty far back into older posts to find. Well worth a look. I even added them to my blogroll and rss feed, I enjoyed it so much. Thank you, Clisty.
